I’ve been reading some posts from people who have spoken of opening their eyes or having someone make a noise during an infusion, essentially to maintain their connection to ordinary reality, as far as I can tell. It got me to wondering about that state of non-ordinary reality that some people refer to as the “K-Hole”, and what that term means to different people. It appears to be kind of similar to the old cliche about obscenity: “I may not know how to define it, but I know it when I see it.” It seems to me that the same could be said about the K-Hole - I don’t know how to define it, but I know when I’m in it.
I don’t really like the term because I think it carries a street drug connotation that doesn’t serve the movement towards constructive use of psychedelics. Nonetheless, can it be defined? For me, I think it relates to that state of having LOST all awareness of ordinary reality; i.e. the state where I have lost all body awareness, having become simply a point of awareness observing what is happening upon the screen, so to speak. Everyone is different, but actively seeking to maintain that connection to ordinary reality would seem to work against my objective.
My daughter and I had been estranged, and when she died of an overdose, I had an infusion ten days later. At the height of the experience, I was able to acknowledge my feelings for her objectively and did so, whereupon it seemed that the entire universe twisted and moved to a new state, as if that issue had been addressed and it was time to move on to something else.
So what say you? What does the K-Hole mean to you, and is getting to that state a desirable thing?