Hello! Welcome to the community! We’re glad you’re reaching out.
Also I’m no mental health/medical expert so take anything I say with a grain of salt! But just out of curiosity, have you’ve tried any SNRIs, like Cymbalta or Pristiq? I know Cymbalta has done wonders for my anxiety (that being said, I had increase of anxiety in the beginning taking the medication, but it passed once I adjusted to it), and I have an intuition it was more the norepinephrine effect that had the greatest impact on me.
Also, sometimes treatment can take in the form of a variety of things, the form of which we’d sometimes least expect it! I guess one example is this documentary I watched where this guy was talking about how he was anxious and depressed, until suddenly he realized that drinking blood was the solution for him! (I’m in no way suggesting you become a vampire lol). The point is that it’s great you’re still at it, still exploring what makes you feel okay good. And whatever works for you is honestly whatever works for you, which can open up a lot more options. Possibly the answer for you is super personalized, and involves dressing up in onesie howling at the moon every night (ok maybe that’s my answer lol).
ANYWAY one question you can ask yourself is–what opportunities/experiences/etc have you’ve been denying yourself because they seem frivolous? Just make sure to stay safe and uh, not bite people without their consent.
Another thing that can be overlooked when dealing things anxiety/depression is looking at things from a trauma perspective. You needn’t have grown up in a war zone to benefit from taking a look at PTSD treatment! One book that was super helpful to me when I was at my worst was “The Body Keeps the Score” by Bessel van der Kolk, which basically argues that the resolution of trauma can’t just be talked through, or even medicated through, but there also has to be a bodily component. In that sphere, somatic experiencing (basically focusing on bodily sensations with some extra stuff) worked for me (like it really helped when I had some memory problems and somatic hallucinations), but something else might resonate for you!
That being said, there’s also other flavors of brain stimulation, like electroconvulsive therapy and deep brain stimulation. My knowledge is limited, but I know they can be super helpful in severe cases! There’s also neurofeedback, though I don’t think it’s as well established as ECT and deep brain stimulation (and I think insurance doesn’t doesn’t cover it.)
Also you might want to get your thyroid checked! It’s something I’ve heard a few time. I knew someone who had depression until she got thyroid medication and that basically resolved it for her.
I’ll also ask around and see what other, more experienced people have to say!
But hopefully this gives you some more options to explore! Or just kill time until something even better comes around. Usually there isn’t a quick fix, but layers of things. Every gain is victory, and every loss is a chance to learn something!