I am a pain patient; I have CRPS. It was recommended to go through ketamine treatment to help with the chronic pain. The protocol I followed was 4hrs a day, 5days in a row.
It was THE hardest thing I’ve endured in my life. By day 3, I legit felt like a science experiment- completely out of body. My husband is also a chronic pain patient and we did ours together… we agreed it was pure HELL.
We think that the doctors who write these protocols do research, but don’t experience what they’re putting people through.
Coming down is INCREDIBLY HARD. We barely slept for 5 days. The first 3, I don’t think either of us got even 5 minutes of sleep. We spent time just staring at the wall, holding hands. We felt so disconnected with reality even after the 4 hours that it didn’t feel real.
He was only able to complete 4 days. I completed the full 5 but like everyone else is saying, we felt depleted-
In every sense: physically, emotionally, and mentally.
We only could stomach 2 meals in the 5 days. We survived on Gatorade. My mom said it was obvious that I lost weight that week. I couldn’t grasp what was going on around me even after the 4hours.
Unfortunately the closest facility that took our insurance is 2hrs away in another state, so we had to stay in a hotel. It was beyond horrible to try and feel sane afterwards.
During the 4hr treatment, some of it was tolerable- some visions were very vivid, sometimes I felt like an out of
Body experience. Sometimes I saw colors, or what looked like marshmallows cave in on me. I heard pill bottles shaking and even 3 months later I can’t stand that sound.
On my 4th day, I felt static electricity throughout my ENTIRE body- like every nerve ending was wiggling. I could even taste it. It was so bad I wanted to rip the IV out of my arm, but my facilities weren’t all there, so I couldn’t figure out how.
If anyone hasn’t done it and is looking into it-
Please truly talk to someone who’s gone through it. We weren’t warned and I wish we would have been. As much as we were so called “prepared”- we never expected what we experienced.
My husband who was blown up in Iraq, in the Marines said he feels like he handles his PTSD from that fairly well (and he does. He does well, all things considering), but this Ketamine protocol gave us both PTSD. I’m not sure if or when we’d be able to do it again and it’s suggested for our protocol that after you complete the 5 days, it should last 2-4 months and then need to come back for a 2-3 day re-infusion (booster infusion)- whatever you want to call it and neither of us plan to. It was rough. I gave it EVERYTHING I had and I truly felt like what I saw/mentally went through is not something any human should have to endure.
……and yet we do it, in hopes of chronic pain relief. It goes to show how HORRIBLE living with chronic pain is, and what we’re willing to put ourselves through in hopes of relief- any relief.
Thanks for listening.