Hi, today I had my last 2 hour infusion out of my initial 6 sessions. Most of it went beyond wonderful, but my playlist got interrupted and went silent at probably the best place I’ve been in all of them at the peak and I think I may have been in ego death, something I dreamed of happening. I opened my eyes to make the playlist start back up after touching all the wrong buttons and it switching me to a lecture, what I saw was disconcerting and I couldn’t get back to where I was and I couldn’t get my play list to start back and I got a headache. All I could say was something went wrong. I was so mad at myself because I’m still learning tools like next time, I will go on airplane mode and have all the playlist downloaded and maybe put the phone far away from me so I won’t be able to access it to mess up the icons. I went home and slept 3 hours and when I woke up I remember the two things that really upset me because I couldn’t understand how they were in MY consciousness. A relative that knows my history immediately recognized a different connection when I mentioned the words and immediately I realized it was all worth it. Maybe we need to make a list of things to do that have helped us and make a toolbox of recommendations for future experiences and new clients? Anybody else have a session interrupted, suggestions of what to do so I can hang with it in the future better?
Thanks
That sounds rough, but I’m glad you feel it was worth it. Sometimes things become clearer when we get another perspective.
I do just what you said - airplane mode and have the playlist downloaded. I do leave my phone in my hand so that I can adjust the volume easily, though.
There is a turn off notification button on my phone that is a godsend. Interruptions suck.
Definitely avoid interruptions. If you are interrupted don’t be afraid to tell someone you are busy.
I don’t even like when the blood pressure cuff squeezes during the infusion…
I think that’s the first thing that I noticed when I am starting to come down from my infusion. My clinic provides a great quiet safe place. The monitoring machines do make a little bit of noise. Once the infusion starts to kick in I will either listen to a meditation on YouTube or my iPod with my favorite music.
I don’t understand how anybody is able to even touch their phone unless I’m just different because I can’t move at all I remember after one of the experiences my feet were crossed and I want it so badly to them cross my feet and I couldn’t do it. How do you make yourself aware to move I am in such a trip in my head and I feel like I am being squished. I have a friend who says she sees a difference but I’m not feeling so great
Another thing that might help is to prepare my mindset beforehand and remove any strong expectations like I have to achieve this, I must fix that, etc… When I had interruptions like this, I’d try to tell myself that it doesn’t matter and just let it be, since whatever happens is meant to happen and maybe there’s a perfect reason for it to happen to me which I just don’t see it yet. Emotion may still come up when unexpected occurs especially during a session but usually they don’t last as long and sometimes would disappear before I even realize.
Welcome YYu!!!
I took off my hoodie at my last ketamine session because I didn’t want that arm band squishing my arm.
Welcome! Just remember it’s your time. My intention is always just to feel better. I shared a meditation that I am having really good results with. I’ve been doing infusions once a month for over a year and my February infusion was one of the best I’ve ever had! The deeper I can go into my own mind it seems to relate to how much better I feel. I like it to be weird, and slightly disconnected. I love that out of body feeling with The Universe moving around you . On ketamine you can feel the ocean of motion that we live in ! I think our imaginations are a fascinating thing. I think of the coolest stuff when I am on ketamine. If the spirit world is anything like ketamine it’s going to be awesome! For so many years I have search for that happy place. I am finding it again. Nothing is perfect; but this medicine works better than anything I have ever tried in all my life. I was shot in the face when I was nine years old so it’s been a long journey.
I was mostly the same way. I had to work hard to do it, mostly just touching the screen. I won’t ever do that again. I’m paying someone to go with me next time to handle it for me if necessary. Like others I can’t even stand the bp cuff.
It is the best thing I’ve ever done as well and the Spiritual-WOW-just wow.
In my last session my doctor had to put my headphones on and press the right button on the phone. Don’t be afraid to ask for help.
So spiritual! I love it. God is more accessible on ketamine.