First experience with the lozenges. I detached from my shell/ego. Even saw thoughts that normally would define my day/world floating around the space where I just separated from. As I moved further away from those it became increasingly clear how small they were in comparison to the experience of existence.
I saw a great machine. The word Process captures it more accurately. But I really can’t say what it was. It was as if I went on tour of parts of it. I can’t figure if the mechanics were my inner workings, or the process of existence itself.
I wasn’t left with a feeling of fear. Or even feeling small. Just that whoever we are here, in what we call the physical world, are really small in comparison to the grand mechanism, but also important parts of it.
What does it mean? I really can’t say. But it made me feel better. I think perhaps it’s knowing that there is much more to this world, this existence than what appears on the surface. And there was love there, too, amidst the stone, fire and carvings. Much of it was Aztec in appearance.
I go in again in a few days, which scares me. But I’m tired of fear and tired of depression.
Has anyone else seen mechanical related imagery? Massive buildings of galactic scale?
May you be free from suffering