Want to see if anyone else here has had similar experience…
So, my first infusion went great! I was nervous going into it as I didn’t know what to expect – it ended up being exceedingly pleasant. Most calm/peaceful I have felt in literally as long as I can remember.
I woke up the next morning feeling refreshed and ready to tackle my day. I was stoked that this whole (very expensive) thing felt like it was going to work!
I had my 2nd infusion yesterday, and today I am NOT feeling great.
My insomnia (one of the reasons I’m doing this) was awful last night… My depression and anxiety feel like they are taking over like before… And all of the tools I felt I gained during treatment #1 have backslid to me feeling like this has done nothing but get me high.
Anyway – I’m not here to complain, I want to know if any of you have had this experience and similar after effects…
All throughout my 2nd infusion, I found myself kind of unable to “let go” and just kept having obsessive/intrusive thoughts about the treatment itself. The providers/what they were doing, thinking about the needle in my arm, not being able to get in a comfortable position, etc.
The first time around, I didn’t notice my body or think about the clinic itself AT ALL, but yesterday it was just a swirl of all of that and the next thing I knew, it was over.
What I’m wondering is if maybe the ‘day after’ feelings being in line with the treatment experiences ring true with any of y’all… And if so, what did you do to steer yourself back to a more helpful/introspective place?